Exiting the building, Tomo walked to a nearby bench and sat down. His mask jutsu dispelled, revealing his flushed cheeks and furrowed brows. He lifted his face upwards towards the sky, letting the cool air wash over him. Smoke trailed from his mouth as he let out a breath he didn't realize he was holding. Gazing at the stars above, Tomo contemplated the wretched feeling still plaguing his heart. Kitsune's song had not been the culprit, nor was the mention of the Shinrya clan and Mochizuki Troupe.
His mind rested on the mention of the mission Saeko went on. That was it, as was evident by the pang in Tomo's chest at the thought. But what was it about the sentence that bothered him? He also remembered looking to Saeko, seeing her hold hands with Kahako... Tomo clenched his hand over his heart, it's beating physically hurting him. Why couldn't he figure this out? Though nowhere near perfect, he deemed his logical analysis of people to be one of his stronger points. Yet he couldn't even solve the question of his own feelings?
Tomo closed his eyes to concentrate harder. He needed to get back into the ballroom to mingle, but he couldn't do that until this crisis was resolved. Oooohoohoo! Seems to me, Tomo-boy, that you need an inside-outsider opinion. Tomo scoffed lightly. "I don't need your help Haruki. Just let me think." Really? Because it appears to me that you are thoroughly stumped. "And you have the answer?" I dooooo indeed Tomo-boy. It's rather simple in truth. You, Tomo-boy, deem yourself inferior to the women around you. Tomo cocked an eyebrow and opened his eyes. "What?" Undeniably. You are surrounded by women far more successful than you, and you question whether you are even worthy of fawning over them. Tomo pondered this for a few moments, dreading that he was slowly seeing Haruki's point. His first crush, Kahako, was now the Medical Sennin. Saeko was just honored for completing an S-rank mission, which Tomo couldn't even fathom. Even the women in his own family were more successful than he, or at least stronger.
Tomo rested his elbows on his legs and stared at the ground. "Am I just a big joke? Mochizuki Tomo, comic relief of the Mochizuki Troupe?" Tomo's eyelids drooped. "What could I possibly offer to anyone...I can't fight, I can't protect, and my troupe is far from wealthy." Tomo lifted his face again to meet the crisp breeze. He searched the stars for answers, but they didn't reply. Not even Haruki said a word, and so Tomo's existential crisis continued in silence.
His mind rested on the mention of the mission Saeko went on. That was it, as was evident by the pang in Tomo's chest at the thought. But what was it about the sentence that bothered him? He also remembered looking to Saeko, seeing her hold hands with Kahako... Tomo clenched his hand over his heart, it's beating physically hurting him. Why couldn't he figure this out? Though nowhere near perfect, he deemed his logical analysis of people to be one of his stronger points. Yet he couldn't even solve the question of his own feelings?
Tomo closed his eyes to concentrate harder. He needed to get back into the ballroom to mingle, but he couldn't do that until this crisis was resolved. Oooohoohoo! Seems to me, Tomo-boy, that you need an inside-outsider opinion. Tomo scoffed lightly. "I don't need your help Haruki. Just let me think." Really? Because it appears to me that you are thoroughly stumped. "And you have the answer?" I dooooo indeed Tomo-boy. It's rather simple in truth. You, Tomo-boy, deem yourself inferior to the women around you. Tomo cocked an eyebrow and opened his eyes. "What?" Undeniably. You are surrounded by women far more successful than you, and you question whether you are even worthy of fawning over them. Tomo pondered this for a few moments, dreading that he was slowly seeing Haruki's point. His first crush, Kahako, was now the Medical Sennin. Saeko was just honored for completing an S-rank mission, which Tomo couldn't even fathom. Even the women in his own family were more successful than he, or at least stronger.
Tomo rested his elbows on his legs and stared at the ground. "Am I just a big joke? Mochizuki Tomo, comic relief of the Mochizuki Troupe?" Tomo's eyelids drooped. "What could I possibly offer to anyone...I can't fight, I can't protect, and my troupe is far from wealthy." Tomo lifted his face again to meet the crisp breeze. He searched the stars for answers, but they didn't reply. Not even Haruki said a word, and so Tomo's existential crisis continued in silence.