Once again Teke would find herself wandering through the golden dunes alone, seeking answers but this time there was no god to answer them and unbeknownst to her, that was the intention of her creator. She'd been taking it easy, soaking in the sights, sounds and smells of the endless wastes before eventually returning to the scene of her "ascension". She took a step onto a large shard of glass, the plate her unlashed powers had created having since being shattered, probably by angry beasts who didn't quite understand what it was or why it was invading their home. It felt strange to say but she could almost still feel the electricity coursing through the air and the cold presence of her Mistress who had seemingly sacrificed herself to endow Teke with a power that the girl was currently having trouble understanding which was one of the reasons for this walk. The other reason was that she didn't like the idea that what she was about to do could end up rendering half of the village to rubble and that's if she was lucky.
"I don't understand how you want me to use this power, mistress... I get it, It wouldn't be meaningful if I didn't figure it out on my own but... nothing at all?" She was clearly frustrated, her body had been going through both mental and physical changes ever since that day and it was stressing her out, to say the least. She felt like she was becoming less and less like herself as time went on, she was actually enjoying and even craving normal, human food when just a few months ago it made her literally sick to even put near her lips. There were some minor upsides, of course, her control over lightning had become quite a bit more powerful, if extremely unstable most of the time and the magenta color it took on was quite ascetically pleasing but other than that it was all a mess. She made her way across the spires of glass and sand, often having the hop over small crevices on the way as she made her way to what would have been the epicenter of the explosion. She looked down at the ground and could still see remnants of the ritual burnt into the glass, now unintelligible but she could still see it so clearly and inside her even right now she could feel the power welling up once again and threatening to burst forth. "Fucks sake.." She groaned, taking a few deep breaths before the feeling subsided at least a little. "I thought this power was meant to make me perfect! Instead, I get to be a ticking time bomb and hurt the people I care about against my will." She was shouting this rather loudly, hoping that by some miracle she would get her mistress to answer but all that followed was the desert winds whistling through the sands and glass. "Why didn't you tell me anything at all about how to control this? I can't even use my jutsu properly anymore and it's pissin' me off!" She screamed, sinking to her knees and punching the ground out of frustration, over and over again.
"All I wanted was to be strong, for you... for them... for him... I wanted to show them that even a fuck up like me can be a hero. I don't care if people hate me or are scared of me, I don't care if they talked about me like I was some kind of freak because they can't understand what I am." At this point, the tears had started to well up and roll down her cheeks for but a moment before falling into the sands and drying almost instantly. "I just wanted to be able to keep them safe, doing the things that need to be done, that they wouldn't understand was good for them... now I'm just as likely to kill them as keep them safe and for what? A promise at being this perfect being who was above and beyond anything humanity had ever seen?" Her ranting stopped at this point though her tears certainly kept flowing and she sat there for a long time, just thinking, why would her god do this to her? had she been mistaken that Teke was the chosen one she'd been waiting for? because it felt like that might be the case. Was her body rejecting the influx of power suddenly introduced to it? All this and more repeating over and over again in her head and driving her mad and it's not like she could talk to anyone about it, people already scoffed at the idea of what happened to be the act of a god so what help would they offer now? How could they help if they refuse to believe the source of the problem?
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The girl wept for the better part of three hours, barely moving except when to breath. Her long silence was broken eventually as anger once again welled up inside of her as did the beast within, it was so strong and impossible to ignore and she just wanted it all to be over more than anything. "I've worked hard to get to where I am and I won't let you take it away from me!" She roared and turned her face toward the open, blue sky she loved so much. "You can just have your fucking power back!" She was angry and confused, she trusted her Mistress with every fibre of her being and it felt like she'd been betrayed after showing her nothing but love and admiration, it was this thought alone that started to bring the power to breaking point as every chakra point on her body blew out and volatile, electrical chakra pours violently from the girl's body and it was every bit as agonizing as the previous time. Despite the pain, the explosion was nothing compared to the last time, it was far more contained which if Teke could think at the moment she would note as a good thing, alas her mind was lost to the pain as she now clung to the sides of her head, screaming as she struggled to get control back over her body and having little in the way of success.
[WC - 1056]
I will be using my Discovery of Contract of Your Choice card and I wish to find the Kami contract, please~
"I don't understand how you want me to use this power, mistress... I get it, It wouldn't be meaningful if I didn't figure it out on my own but... nothing at all?" She was clearly frustrated, her body had been going through both mental and physical changes ever since that day and it was stressing her out, to say the least. She felt like she was becoming less and less like herself as time went on, she was actually enjoying and even craving normal, human food when just a few months ago it made her literally sick to even put near her lips. There were some minor upsides, of course, her control over lightning had become quite a bit more powerful, if extremely unstable most of the time and the magenta color it took on was quite ascetically pleasing but other than that it was all a mess. She made her way across the spires of glass and sand, often having the hop over small crevices on the way as she made her way to what would have been the epicenter of the explosion. She looked down at the ground and could still see remnants of the ritual burnt into the glass, now unintelligible but she could still see it so clearly and inside her even right now she could feel the power welling up once again and threatening to burst forth. "Fucks sake.." She groaned, taking a few deep breaths before the feeling subsided at least a little. "I thought this power was meant to make me perfect! Instead, I get to be a ticking time bomb and hurt the people I care about against my will." She was shouting this rather loudly, hoping that by some miracle she would get her mistress to answer but all that followed was the desert winds whistling through the sands and glass. "Why didn't you tell me anything at all about how to control this? I can't even use my jutsu properly anymore and it's pissin' me off!" She screamed, sinking to her knees and punching the ground out of frustration, over and over again.
"All I wanted was to be strong, for you... for them... for him... I wanted to show them that even a fuck up like me can be a hero. I don't care if people hate me or are scared of me, I don't care if they talked about me like I was some kind of freak because they can't understand what I am." At this point, the tears had started to well up and roll down her cheeks for but a moment before falling into the sands and drying almost instantly. "I just wanted to be able to keep them safe, doing the things that need to be done, that they wouldn't understand was good for them... now I'm just as likely to kill them as keep them safe and for what? A promise at being this perfect being who was above and beyond anything humanity had ever seen?" Her ranting stopped at this point though her tears certainly kept flowing and she sat there for a long time, just thinking, why would her god do this to her? had she been mistaken that Teke was the chosen one she'd been waiting for? because it felt like that might be the case. Was her body rejecting the influx of power suddenly introduced to it? All this and more repeating over and over again in her head and driving her mad and it's not like she could talk to anyone about it, people already scoffed at the idea of what happened to be the act of a god so what help would they offer now? How could they help if they refuse to believe the source of the problem?
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The girl wept for the better part of three hours, barely moving except when to breath. Her long silence was broken eventually as anger once again welled up inside of her as did the beast within, it was so strong and impossible to ignore and she just wanted it all to be over more than anything. "I've worked hard to get to where I am and I won't let you take it away from me!" She roared and turned her face toward the open, blue sky she loved so much. "You can just have your fucking power back!" She was angry and confused, she trusted her Mistress with every fibre of her being and it felt like she'd been betrayed after showing her nothing but love and admiration, it was this thought alone that started to bring the power to breaking point as every chakra point on her body blew out and volatile, electrical chakra pours violently from the girl's body and it was every bit as agonizing as the previous time. Despite the pain, the explosion was nothing compared to the last time, it was far more contained which if Teke could think at the moment she would note as a good thing, alas her mind was lost to the pain as she now clung to the sides of her head, screaming as she struggled to get control back over her body and having little in the way of success.
[WC - 1056]
I will be using my Discovery of Contract of Your Choice card and I wish to find the Kami contract, please~