Touching the rock, tracing the artificial ridge dug through it's surface, he tried to remember what she looked like as she stood in front of the cave. The look of horror. He wasn't sure why this was so important, he knew that he hadn't seen her face clearly that night, but felt his mind working against him, as if if he just focused hard enough, burrowed deeply enough into the depths of his thoughts, somehow her exact expression would come through, clear as the face of the moon from muddled water. He wanted to remember who she was on that night, as if it was the girl who had, in some way, changed since then.
The man stood at the edge of the wall that granted a promise of exit for any poor soul hopeful enough to believe in the prospect of greener pastures. He crooned his head around from side to side, an obvious display for checking if the coast was clear, but that wasn't what he was looking for, and it wasn't exactly trouble he was scouting the stony face of the cliffs for either. This was just a light experiment; knocking on the door of the city to see what watchful eyes were hanging over it. It was true that he had worked hard enough to be finally inducted into the more elite ranks the city had to offer, but he was fooling himself if he thought for a moment he might match those who truly lusted for power. These people lacked something important too though, and it wasn't just ethics.
He was naked in the woods, so to speak. He worked hard enough on his own to get as far as he had, but living alone, a hermit, was no way to accomplish anything important in the world. He had been alone so long that he could not feel the importance truly of any of what he wanted to accomplish, but acted, moved one foot in front of the other, as if guided by the iron fist of his previous self, shouting at him from a frontier that seemed like a hundred million miles away, separated by an ocean, it's currents wicked and ready to smash your ship upon the shore at the first sign you might be trying to sail back. He stood out in the morning sun, a bloated thumb, beaten with a hammer, standing squarely in the open air like a patiently waiting challenger.