Tama’s bi-colored eyes kept fixed on the screen as he tried to distract his brain and focus on the food. The smell of the meat pie wafted into the air as he lifted a piece with the knife and placed it on a plate. The knife went to dig into another piece that missed and nicked his finger instead when he felt Okibi’s hair on his ear. A shudder went deep down his spin as the wound didn’t even bleed before healing back up. Then there was the question, a question that he had somewhat dreaded to be asked but knew that someday it would be asked; she was far smarter than most had given the Wild Child credit for.
The metal finger replacing the hair actually caused him to gasp a little and pull his head away for fear of the blood in his head rushing other places. Taking a deep breath he turned his eyes to look at her red orbs of curiosity and realized just how honest the question really was despite the way she was messing with him just to ask it. He released it slowly before turning his eyes away in a short of shame and begin to speak, trying to put into words for the first time his phobia involving women,
“Well…to be honest you’re the only girl who’s hair I have ever touched. You’re the first girl I’ve touched period. I have this…strange fear and…fascination with you. You see, all my life I’ve had very scary women haunting me. My mother was a real piece of work with the way she drove me in my studies…then there was that super scary assassin chick I hired to be my bodyguard for a little while – mostly just to keep her from turning on me…<i></i>” His hands were in his lap nervously rubbing each other, “…and well, when you see the gender you already have a nature fearful respect of snap someone’s neck like it was nothing it turns onto a full frontal horror. I’m honest to Kami terrified of women and everything about them….but then there is you. You were the first and only female I’ve met that…I…well, wanted to know. You’re the only one who was there for me when my mother died and that meant a lot to me on a level that went deeper than my fear.<i></i>”
He turned his eyes up to look back at her squarely and felt his heart race again as he looked at her face,
“I’m trying…trying not to be afraid of you because you’re the only person I trust, Okibi, male or female. I want to be able to have that same inner strength that you have around me to conquer your fears as a thing of the past…to live in today and look at tomorrow with a grin on my face instead of the bleak scheduled routine that every day is…<i></i>” he turned his face away again, the flesh just as red as ever, “S-sorry, I’m rambling again.<i></i>” he said quietly as he tried to focus back on cutting himself a slice of food while trying to calm the heart he was just so sure was about to explode any second.
Wasn’t easy to talk about your fears with the thing you fear.
The metal finger replacing the hair actually caused him to gasp a little and pull his head away for fear of the blood in his head rushing other places. Taking a deep breath he turned his eyes to look at her red orbs of curiosity and realized just how honest the question really was despite the way she was messing with him just to ask it. He released it slowly before turning his eyes away in a short of shame and begin to speak, trying to put into words for the first time his phobia involving women,
“Well…to be honest you’re the only girl who’s hair I have ever touched. You’re the first girl I’ve touched period. I have this…strange fear and…fascination with you. You see, all my life I’ve had very scary women haunting me. My mother was a real piece of work with the way she drove me in my studies…then there was that super scary assassin chick I hired to be my bodyguard for a little while – mostly just to keep her from turning on me…<i></i>” His hands were in his lap nervously rubbing each other, “…and well, when you see the gender you already have a nature fearful respect of snap someone’s neck like it was nothing it turns onto a full frontal horror. I’m honest to Kami terrified of women and everything about them….but then there is you. You were the first and only female I’ve met that…I…well, wanted to know. You’re the only one who was there for me when my mother died and that meant a lot to me on a level that went deeper than my fear.<i></i>”
He turned his eyes up to look back at her squarely and felt his heart race again as he looked at her face,
“I’m trying…trying not to be afraid of you because you’re the only person I trust, Okibi, male or female. I want to be able to have that same inner strength that you have around me to conquer your fears as a thing of the past…to live in today and look at tomorrow with a grin on my face instead of the bleak scheduled routine that every day is…<i></i>” he turned his face away again, the flesh just as red as ever, “S-sorry, I’m rambling again.<i></i>” he said quietly as he tried to focus back on cutting himself a slice of food while trying to calm the heart he was just so sure was about to explode any second.
Wasn’t easy to talk about your fears with the thing you fear.