Academy life suited Shoma, most of the time. He'd always enjoyed devoting himself to a singular purpose, and that's exactly what he was expected to do as an Academy Student. The structure and direction that classes gave him kept him busy, and he felt like he'd made some real progress over the past few months. He no longer felt slow and awkward, and it seemed that his skill was beginning to reach a point where he could truly utilize the size advantage he held over most of his classmates. Life in the village had gone from confusing to comfortable, in a constantly sore, constantly acting and reacting kind of way. Still, despite his appreciation for the day-to-day hubbub, he wouldn't be Uchima Shoma if he didn't know how to take full advantage of a day off.
Shoma was under a tree, lying on his back in the grass behind the boarding house that had been his home since arriving in Konoha. His head was resting on a balled-up jacket he'd brought from his room - it needed to be washed anyway - and he was staring up at the sky through a gap in the branches. The clouds above were like three-dimensional paintings on blue canvas, floating by lazily before Shoma's eyes.
That one's a rabbit, and that one looks like a horse. There's a fat caterpillar over there, and that one looks a little like a bird.
He'd been identifying clouds for an hour already and showed no signs of stopping. It was something he'd started doing as a small child back in the village, sneaking away from the tea shop to lie on the roof above and watch the clouds. It was a way to relax, sure, but at the same time, it was a way to work through his own thoughts and feelings. Clouds moved slowly, of course, leaving plenty of room for pondering.
I wonder how Dad is doing, and Kuma. I bet Kuma misses me, I should probably go see them sometime soon. Maybe I should write a letter first just to make sure it's ok.
What will I tell him if I go back? He never cared about Shinobi stuff much, so telling him about my Taijutsu classes and the Ninjutsu I've learned probably won't mean much.
I wonder if he even wants to see me.
I thought he'd have written by now.
Shoma's eyes turned down at that thought. He'd always known his father was likely conflicted at best about his leaving. He'd always reminded his father of his mother, who passed away while giving birth to Shoma. His father probably wasn't capable of living a happy life anymore, but it would be happier without Shoma in it.
I guess I won't go back. I do miss Kuma though. I wonder if he'd let me bring him here.
Thinking about the family dog brought a smile back to the 13-year-old's face. Kuma had been his best friend for 5 years, ever since Shoma had found him as a puppy, wandering the woods on the outskirts of the village. He was a big, white dog with a ferocious growl that melted into a goofy grin as soon as you showed him a treat. He was a sweet dog, the only one Shoma had been able to truly talk to. He missed the pooch terribly.
That cloud kind of looks like Kuma, actually. There are the eyes, and the nose...and that's his tongue hanging out like it does when I rub his belly.
Shoma wasn't typically a crier, but he could feel a few tears slipping out.
Why is life so hard? Even when I'm doing the thing I've always wanted to do, going to the ninja academy, I still feel lost. I wish Kuma was here. He'd understand.
Shoma let out a world-weary sigh. These thoughts weren't new to him, but they never felt any lighter. They were constantly present, weighing him down any time he stopped to acknowledge them. He looked around as he wiped the tears from his eyes. He'd let his thoughts wander and now he was at risk of ruining a perfectly good day off. As he had so many times before, almost symbolically, Shoma sat up, got to his feet, and left the solitude of the tree.
Forward. I have to always move forward. If I stop, I'll die under that tree.
Shoma went up to his room and grabbed the gloves he'd purchased not long after joining the academy. Viper Gloves, they were called, as they were designed with little barbs on the knuckles to which poison could be applied and delivered with every punch. He hadn't any real occasion to use them yet, but he liked to put them on and get a feel for them occasionally. He did so now and flexed his fingers a bit. They felt good, powerful, but they also frightened him a bit. They were tools of violence, after all. He still wasn't sure what it would feel like to bring someone closer to death with his own hands. Aside from unarmed Taijutsu, he had taken an interest in poisons, though he still wasn't sure if his interest was more academic or practical. The thought of administering poison to another human being also brought him no small amount of internal conflict.
Maybe I really should be a med-nin. I'm not sure I want my purpose to be to hurt people.
Still wearing the gloves, he continued the train of thought as he went back down the stairs of the boarding home.
If I become an Anbu, I can stop people from being hurt, but I have to do it by hurting people outside the village. If I become a med-nin, then I only really get to help people after they've already been hurt, but I can do it without causing more pain. Maybe I should stay in the main branch and become a Taijutsu instructor. But then again, I would need experience, so I'd still have to go out on missions and cause pain.
Shoma's face was scrunched up in thought as he stepped back out the front door of the boarding house. He was on his way to the punching bag made of thick leather that hung in the open courtyard across the street.
So do I use violence to prevent violence, or do I let violence happen and clean up after? I could go into the combat division of the medical branch, which is kind of the best of both worlds, I guess. Hikaru-san does seem pretty nice, and it would be cool to study under her. If I become an Anbu then maybe I'll be in the same division as Toshi.
Arriving at the punching bag, Shoma looked around and saw that the courtyard was empty. It was getting to be about dinner time, so most people were probably inside. He came to a tentative conclusion as he began warming up, striking, bobbing, and weaving as he worked through a sequence from a recent Taijutsu class.
I should try to talk to someone from the Anbu branch and understand it more. Maybe then I'll be able to make a good decision.
He continued the sequence, working up a decent sweat in the process.
That's it, I'll try to find an Anbu to talk to...hopefully I survive.
[OOC: Anyone who wants to jump in is welcome. I'll leave the thread open for a week and leave if no one responds]
Shoma was under a tree, lying on his back in the grass behind the boarding house that had been his home since arriving in Konoha. His head was resting on a balled-up jacket he'd brought from his room - it needed to be washed anyway - and he was staring up at the sky through a gap in the branches. The clouds above were like three-dimensional paintings on blue canvas, floating by lazily before Shoma's eyes.
That one's a rabbit, and that one looks like a horse. There's a fat caterpillar over there, and that one looks a little like a bird.
He'd been identifying clouds for an hour already and showed no signs of stopping. It was something he'd started doing as a small child back in the village, sneaking away from the tea shop to lie on the roof above and watch the clouds. It was a way to relax, sure, but at the same time, it was a way to work through his own thoughts and feelings. Clouds moved slowly, of course, leaving plenty of room for pondering.
I wonder how Dad is doing, and Kuma. I bet Kuma misses me, I should probably go see them sometime soon. Maybe I should write a letter first just to make sure it's ok.
What will I tell him if I go back? He never cared about Shinobi stuff much, so telling him about my Taijutsu classes and the Ninjutsu I've learned probably won't mean much.
I wonder if he even wants to see me.
I thought he'd have written by now.
Shoma's eyes turned down at that thought. He'd always known his father was likely conflicted at best about his leaving. He'd always reminded his father of his mother, who passed away while giving birth to Shoma. His father probably wasn't capable of living a happy life anymore, but it would be happier without Shoma in it.
I guess I won't go back. I do miss Kuma though. I wonder if he'd let me bring him here.
Thinking about the family dog brought a smile back to the 13-year-old's face. Kuma had been his best friend for 5 years, ever since Shoma had found him as a puppy, wandering the woods on the outskirts of the village. He was a big, white dog with a ferocious growl that melted into a goofy grin as soon as you showed him a treat. He was a sweet dog, the only one Shoma had been able to truly talk to. He missed the pooch terribly.
That cloud kind of looks like Kuma, actually. There are the eyes, and the nose...and that's his tongue hanging out like it does when I rub his belly.
Shoma wasn't typically a crier, but he could feel a few tears slipping out.
Why is life so hard? Even when I'm doing the thing I've always wanted to do, going to the ninja academy, I still feel lost. I wish Kuma was here. He'd understand.
Shoma let out a world-weary sigh. These thoughts weren't new to him, but they never felt any lighter. They were constantly present, weighing him down any time he stopped to acknowledge them. He looked around as he wiped the tears from his eyes. He'd let his thoughts wander and now he was at risk of ruining a perfectly good day off. As he had so many times before, almost symbolically, Shoma sat up, got to his feet, and left the solitude of the tree.
Forward. I have to always move forward. If I stop, I'll die under that tree.
Shoma went up to his room and grabbed the gloves he'd purchased not long after joining the academy. Viper Gloves, they were called, as they were designed with little barbs on the knuckles to which poison could be applied and delivered with every punch. He hadn't any real occasion to use them yet, but he liked to put them on and get a feel for them occasionally. He did so now and flexed his fingers a bit. They felt good, powerful, but they also frightened him a bit. They were tools of violence, after all. He still wasn't sure what it would feel like to bring someone closer to death with his own hands. Aside from unarmed Taijutsu, he had taken an interest in poisons, though he still wasn't sure if his interest was more academic or practical. The thought of administering poison to another human being also brought him no small amount of internal conflict.
Maybe I really should be a med-nin. I'm not sure I want my purpose to be to hurt people.
Still wearing the gloves, he continued the train of thought as he went back down the stairs of the boarding home.
If I become an Anbu, I can stop people from being hurt, but I have to do it by hurting people outside the village. If I become a med-nin, then I only really get to help people after they've already been hurt, but I can do it without causing more pain. Maybe I should stay in the main branch and become a Taijutsu instructor. But then again, I would need experience, so I'd still have to go out on missions and cause pain.
Shoma's face was scrunched up in thought as he stepped back out the front door of the boarding house. He was on his way to the punching bag made of thick leather that hung in the open courtyard across the street.
So do I use violence to prevent violence, or do I let violence happen and clean up after? I could go into the combat division of the medical branch, which is kind of the best of both worlds, I guess. Hikaru-san does seem pretty nice, and it would be cool to study under her. If I become an Anbu then maybe I'll be in the same division as Toshi.
Arriving at the punching bag, Shoma looked around and saw that the courtyard was empty. It was getting to be about dinner time, so most people were probably inside. He came to a tentative conclusion as he began warming up, striking, bobbing, and weaving as he worked through a sequence from a recent Taijutsu class.
I should try to talk to someone from the Anbu branch and understand it more. Maybe then I'll be able to make a good decision.
He continued the sequence, working up a decent sweat in the process.
That's it, I'll try to find an Anbu to talk to...hopefully I survive.
[OOC: Anyone who wants to jump in is welcome. I'll leave the thread open for a week and leave if no one responds]