Ouch. Kitanai stared at him for a long while. They had yet to really right, which was healthy, but at the same time there was no reason to. She hadn't exactly wanted to keep secrets, but at the same time, the two of them were so private... Kitanai started to figure it was better that she would have kept her mouth shut. It wouldn't have damaged anything to stay quiet, and at the same time she had hoped by telling it something would strengthen. But she felt the stick start to bend, and it was going to break. She was getting nervous... Really nervous.
Kita turned off the water, grabbing a towel as Saemon spoke. She had taken his 'clean' cue as that he wanted to get out. She handed him a towel, wrapping one around her body, and flipping her hair down to wrap another around her hair. "Im not going to stand here and tell you it was someone's fault." Her body leaned back to look at Saemon, a weak and nervous smile crossing her face, "I could blame it on my childhood, or on the orphanage, but I won't. Because that would be a lie. There were other choices. There was patience that could be applied." Her head would turn, wiping her hand under her eye to clear the black from under them.
"I was an idiot-- no, I am an idiot. And I can stand here and admit that," The beautiful, and still rather nervous woman turned to him, that smile coming back as though to convince him, "I fucked up. I don't do it anymore. I stopped years ago," She knew he was hanging onto the escort deal-- who wouldn't? "I'm sorry, Saemon." There it was again. That awkward, very unpracticed apology. She was terrible at them, and yet, she tried, right?
Kita turned off the water, grabbing a towel as Saemon spoke. She had taken his 'clean' cue as that he wanted to get out. She handed him a towel, wrapping one around her body, and flipping her hair down to wrap another around her hair. "Im not going to stand here and tell you it was someone's fault." Her body leaned back to look at Saemon, a weak and nervous smile crossing her face, "I could blame it on my childhood, or on the orphanage, but I won't. Because that would be a lie. There were other choices. There was patience that could be applied." Her head would turn, wiping her hand under her eye to clear the black from under them.
"I was an idiot-- no, I am an idiot. And I can stand here and admit that," The beautiful, and still rather nervous woman turned to him, that smile coming back as though to convince him, "I fucked up. I don't do it anymore. I stopped years ago," She knew he was hanging onto the escort deal-- who wouldn't? "I'm sorry, Saemon." There it was again. That awkward, very unpracticed apology. She was terrible at them, and yet, she tried, right?