Fear, Shashu knew. Irritation, happiness, relief, satisfaction, anger, all these she knew. But this, this degree of not anger, but
fury...she couldn't remember ever feeling this much sheer malice all at once. She wanted to strike out, lash out, cut down, and outright
tear apart the ones responsible for it. Saito was unassailable; even Ayumu and Kahako would turn against her if she attacked him, and she couldn't bear that. Kouin however...he was vulnerable, sniveling on the ground while he clutched at his mask like the traitorous coward he was. Her instincts welled up from deep within and pointed out the obvious: if she could cut out the source of this rage, crush him like an insect, all would be well.
First her gaze flickered over those around her. There was no way of telling if Saito would stop her or not, and she didn't much care. As always her concern lied with Ayumu and Kahako. Shashu's eyes fell shifted to Ayumu, and what she saw made her pulse beat even faster. She could
taste his bloodlust, feel it wash over her skin like a red tide. It was an exhilarating sensation made all the stronger because it was her
Shukun, and she loved everything about him. Even this,
especially this. His eyes told her all she needed to know.
Please Shukun, please! One word, the barest muscle movement, anything! Say the word and we can kill this worm together, bathe in his blood together! And then when he's dead, we can...we will... Fantasy took over from there, finishing what mere thought could not. She watched Ayumu with a stare born of equal parts bloodlust and arousal, her self-control barely holding her instinctual urges in check, when suddenly...
...it stopped. Ayumu relaxed and Shashu's heartbeat fell to a more normal pace, the killing intent fading from both of them. It was Kahako of course. The only voice of reason in that room that could pull Ayumu, and by extension Shashu, back from the brink. Neither of them would risk attacking Kouin if she sided with Saito, and that left no other option than to back down. There was a deep sense of disappointment from her instincts, displeased at being denied the chance to run wild with Ayumu. She longed for any chance to be with him, and she could think of few things more intimate than sharing a kill with the one you love.
Did...did I just...no, I need to rein that back in. For now at least. The ANBU thought.
This is why I love you too, Kahako. Even with this scum in front of you you manage to keep your head. You're a perfect match for Shukun. '
And me,' she wanted to add, but dared not voice it even in her mind. There were other things to focus on now besides. Ayumu set to question Kouin about his questionable meeting, and Saito jolted her attention back towards him as he tried to convince her of his actions.
He said he was sorry. He tried to speak reason, asking her what she would do in his position while at the same time explaining why he couldn't do anything else. He appealed to her sense of camaraderie, and pointed out it would be a waste of their lives to seek further bloodshed instead of peace. To his credit, his arguments even made sense.
It was his lack of understanding though, not his reasoning, that swayed Shashu. His arguments, meant to make her see reason, ironically only served to show her that he had no idea of the real cause behind her anger. It was almost enough to make her laugh. She stifled the impulse though, and replied calmly as she could.
"What would I have you do, Saito-sama? I'd kill him, and be done with it. No matter how guilty he is over the deaths of those ANBU, I can't trust the oath of a man who cares so little for the customs he swears on. If he cared, why break into the village so impatiently? Why not leave peacefully and appeal to you directly when confonted by the ANBU? Fayth, if he felt guilty for their deaths why not turn himself in instead of plotting with Titan, as he admits himself?" The ANBU shook her head.
"I don't believe a word he says. But, as you said, if he is being honest this is the only way he can pay us back. However...you won't be making any friends with this." She leveled her gaze and stared him seriously in the eye.
"They'll hate Kouin, but some of that is going to fall on you too. It seems like a long time, but it's only been three years since Shin's death. We were played by someone who feigned a desire to join us then too, and people are still talking about the treason that happened that day. When they hear about this...it won't go over well. I'm not the most in-touch shinobi by far, but even I can see the people have lost some faith with us over the past few years. This is going to make that worse." She sighed.
"But you're the Raikage, and both Shukun and Kahako are standing behind your decision. That will be enough. For now, at least."
That done, she turned to Kouin, eyes narrowing as she stalked towards
him this time.
"As for you, scum-slut. You think I give a shit about you selling out Titan like it means something?" Without breaking stride she grabbed him by the shirt and throat, lifting him with the arms on her right side before throwing him bodily to the ground. Before he recovered from the impact a boot would slam down as well, grinding into his chest.
"Where do you get off acting all high and mighty? 'You'll show them lightning can strike the same place twice'? Weren't you on your knees just a few seconds ago, blubbering like a baby and begging for forgiveness with snot running down your face? Pathetic. Absolutely pathetic."
The former Kiri-nin's mask caught her eye as she let up her torment. It had fallen to the floor when she struck him, so she bent to pick it up, turning it over in her hands. When she spoke again her voice was calm, almost sympathetic.
"A Kirigakure ANBU mask...it's rather old, isn't it? Was it your father's, perhaps? It must be very important to you." The misty-blue ceramic was slick under her fingers, still wet from the tears Kouin had shed on it.
"I can understand that, you know. I have things that are important to me too. Thing is, in order to become ANBU you have to set aside your former life to make way for the new one. Cast aside former attachments so that you can do your duty with no regret or hesitation. You don't seem ready to do that though, so I'll be nice and do it for you."
She knelt and violently grabbed Kouin's head, making sure his eyes were free to clearly see what she was about to do.
"Watch, and know your place scum. If you're to be Sennin you better fucking act like it. Your past..." Shashu slowly crushed the mask in her many hands, making absolutely sure the former Kiri-nin could see every second of it. Nothing but shards and dust remained when she finished, hissing softly in his ear.
"Has no place here."
The ANBU rose to her feet, turned, and left without another word, making sure she ground the remnants of the mask beneath her heel as she stepped away. This wasn't enough to satisfy her, not at all, but it would suffice for now. She'd made her point.
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