When she had taken up the mission to form a diplomatic alliance between two nations, the at-home repercussions of being gone for long didn’t make the list of things to watch out for. Rei sat at a round table in the brand new kitchen of her brand new home that had been built exactly to specifications. It was in the same place her last home had been, was far smaller than it had been to allow the clan to grow more, and felt painfully empty. In front of the military leader was two simple things; a low-ball glass half full of scotch, and a bottle of said scotch already three-quarters empty. Her hand was gripping the glass which had been reinforced to not become the broken state that was the shattered glass surrounding her. A painful thought shot through her alcohol ladened mind and the hand gripped again; this time the container of the amber liquids held firm.
Miro had started an underground operation using prison labor to collect only the gods knew what with a personal force that apparently vanished just as deeply as the prior sennin had. Her spies could only tell her what, where, and when but not why. They had all completely lost track of Miro and her servants. Words of attacks from Tenouza on a class of students and the presumed death of their sensei - Tobi; presumed because no one could find a body just loads of blood-stained snow. A man who had never wanted to be a shinobi in the first place…
Worse than those two things and whatever other unrest was going on through the nation, Rei’s adopted daughter was completely missing. Her branch lost track of her around the border and now the mother had no idea if her child was alive, dead, or even why she had absconded in the first place. The scotch burned her lips, tongue, and throat as she drained the half-glass and quickly began to pour more as her bloodshot eyes tried to focus on any reason. Tears welled up when the only two choices that made sense was either the Ryuu Madness, or her own failure for not being there when Sumika clearly needed someone to talk to. A sob racked her form. The Sennin’s hand quickly shot up to her mouth to stifle such a weakness but, the tears betrayed the overflowing emotions despite her physical interjection. For the first time since returning home she was happy to be alone.
Mentally she tried to wrap her head around the entire sitaution on a whole as the leader of a village. She knew that this would pass, and that she would need to get back on her feet and continue being a stalwart leader unaffected by such a loss. Indeed she had lost a great many deal of people that she had know, and even liked more, than her own child and never once did such emotions rack her form. Yet with the child, it had been a promise to take care of someone defenseless that needed it - and Rei wholly failed at that task. It was a blow to her pride as a shinobi, as a mother, and most importantly to her - as a human. The Sennin already struggled to keep what retained of her humanity after evolving to such a state, and it seemed emotional triggers were two fold. It was as if was once again suffering the Clan’s Curse despite having beat it once already…
Anxiety, depression, rage, and a bewildered mind laden in alcohol racked the woman as she tried to find any justice in continuing on in a roll she clearly failed in. Rei had hoped to find something relaxing in Konohagakure, and indeed had the time of her life, but if the repercussions of trying to relax as a shinobi was…this…maybe, just maybe…
…she didn’t want to be a ninja anymore.
[MFT]
Miro had started an underground operation using prison labor to collect only the gods knew what with a personal force that apparently vanished just as deeply as the prior sennin had. Her spies could only tell her what, where, and when but not why. They had all completely lost track of Miro and her servants. Words of attacks from Tenouza on a class of students and the presumed death of their sensei - Tobi; presumed because no one could find a body just loads of blood-stained snow. A man who had never wanted to be a shinobi in the first place…
Worse than those two things and whatever other unrest was going on through the nation, Rei’s adopted daughter was completely missing. Her branch lost track of her around the border and now the mother had no idea if her child was alive, dead, or even why she had absconded in the first place. The scotch burned her lips, tongue, and throat as she drained the half-glass and quickly began to pour more as her bloodshot eyes tried to focus on any reason. Tears welled up when the only two choices that made sense was either the Ryuu Madness, or her own failure for not being there when Sumika clearly needed someone to talk to. A sob racked her form. The Sennin’s hand quickly shot up to her mouth to stifle such a weakness but, the tears betrayed the overflowing emotions despite her physical interjection. For the first time since returning home she was happy to be alone.
Mentally she tried to wrap her head around the entire sitaution on a whole as the leader of a village. She knew that this would pass, and that she would need to get back on her feet and continue being a stalwart leader unaffected by such a loss. Indeed she had lost a great many deal of people that she had know, and even liked more, than her own child and never once did such emotions rack her form. Yet with the child, it had been a promise to take care of someone defenseless that needed it - and Rei wholly failed at that task. It was a blow to her pride as a shinobi, as a mother, and most importantly to her - as a human. The Sennin already struggled to keep what retained of her humanity after evolving to such a state, and it seemed emotional triggers were two fold. It was as if was once again suffering the Clan’s Curse despite having beat it once already…
Anxiety, depression, rage, and a bewildered mind laden in alcohol racked the woman as she tried to find any justice in continuing on in a roll she clearly failed in. Rei had hoped to find something relaxing in Konohagakure, and indeed had the time of her life, but if the repercussions of trying to relax as a shinobi was…this…maybe, just maybe…
…she didn’t want to be a ninja anymore.
[MFT]