His ears perked up a sound coming from behind him, his eyes were quicker than his body already. Since this was his own home, he did not have his guard up, something he was scolding himself over right now. He should have known better. His whole body had tensed up in that split second and in his mind, he was already focussing on an attack to create distance from the person behind. Yet the bottle that flew past him, caught him off guard the most. He turned fully around when he finally grasped a bit again. His body felt sluggish in a way, and he was now looking at the yokai. “So tiny…” He muttered those thoughts. From all the stories about this thing, he thought she would be a lot bigger. This wasn’t the case at all. She looked even human in a way, except the additional teeth and the horns… Then again the ears weren’t normal either. He kept watching as that thing chugged the bottle more and more down.
The tune that the other spoke with, the warmth that was coming with it. Was something that felt almost attacking to Ryota, his mind already trying to find the snake in the bushes. In his mind, that tune was often used when they needed something from him. The eyes of Ryota would show signs that he was weary, while his facial expression tried to remain as neutral as anything. “d about. Reports of your last mission…” The last mission… That was right. Ryota halted in his walking away as he saw a flash coming forth again. His skin was already reacting with chicken skin and without Ryota’s wanting, almost a cold sweat started to break out. My older brother is a mad scientist, and I know full well how depraved they can be.” So the other knew what a person could do… Then again, he probably did not know what this person did.
Absentminded he kept watching the imp, his body was in a state of survival almost. Ready to react to anything, his eyes were scanning the imp that was in front of him. How could it attack, how would it attack, would it attack? the pop of the bottle made him watch its behavior, something that he chuckled at for a split second and coughed to get out of his system. The bottle floated over to the lord's hand, on which their eyes could meet for a split second. Right now his eyes were more like a scared cat if anything, weary, and scary, and if you would get closer a kitty would always try to hiss or run away. Not that Ryota could do anything like that, his feet felt like they were glued to the floor.
’ Why… don’t I just get away.? He can’t do anything… right?’ “Is there something you, want to talk about?” The young teen stood there, nailed to the ground. His breathing had already shifted from relaxed stomach to chest breathing, sometimes it would look like he was breathing while thinking of it. His mind was blank. His golden eyes darted again to the man as he spoke once more. “I know that not everyone has a tiny Yokai that shares a soul with them willing to go to bat for the worst of our days.” As the man looked away, so did the teen. Struggling with his mind on what to do.
’ Can I trust him..?’
’ How well do you know him?’
’ Not much… He is the head of the clan, a kage too… He said he would personally train me… ‘
’ Maybe not everything is something bad? ‘
’ How do you know?’
’ Something tells me… This man isn’t out for your hide this time Ryota. Maybe next time when you do something… But not this time. He sounds like he cares.’
’ What if he ‘cares’ too, and in the end betrays me again? ‘
’ So that is a gamble you have to take… He is now here wanting to listen… The question then is, how much do you want to let go of… How much do you want to burden this man with it all?’
’ I don’t want to burden anyone with this… I don’t want anyone to suffer like I had. ‘
’ if it helps… that man that did all of that to you, is still locked up, he hasn’t been released yet.’
‘hnnng, my mind is a mess’.
Not knowing the eyes had already returned to him, Ryota slowly started to sit down on the ground, legs pulled up and just his forehead resting on his knees. What to do… what to say… this silence was getting more and more pressuring. “What makes it… that I can trust you..?” He sounded muffled as he spoke into his little space right now, if Michino asked what he said he would look to the wall while repeating it. This time more clearer to speak. His eyes held a glimpse of emptiness with sadness mixed in. A part of him wanted to trust this man, but a part of him was just too scared off.
Once he heard a reply about it, he would slowly stand back up again. His stomach churning as if he was able to throw up from anxiety right now. Not knowing where to start… He would simply grab the small bag of leaves and drop it in front of Michino on the table. Not speaking about it, yet showing it.
He kept playing with his hands, his eyes looking empty or rather staring at the stuff as he sat down on the ground once more. A habit from the past that he had yet to beat. He wasn’t sure that he was able to tell everything. For a while, he kept a bandage over his upper arm, as he was ashamed of the mark that was left on his body, one of the few that the man had left. His hand was shivering as he removed it. “There… is a lot…” He tried to start the story, yet he wasn’t even sure where to start. What to start, he did feel almost suffocation right now. Someone was willing to listen, but how can he trust someone after all these years..?-
He started to explain still in such detail that a normal person would start to walk away. About that man, the smell that he had, the sound of his voice. The thoughts he had at that point… He explained what he knew really about those herbs, some new information perhaps for the man. “The leaf would make anyone more docile and you would be more likely to follow commands more easily. To make sure that people would keep on taking it, they made the withdrawal symptom that you would get it very cold. Despite the weather outside, or your body temperature. You would get cravings and lose all focus so that wouldn’t think clearly… Yet if you took it regularly, then you would want more and more until you would be a slave. A slave that would listen to every command, and stop thinking altogether.” He spoke about those leaves and just took a moment to breathe. High voice already had been a pitch higher the further they got into the conversation. After he caught his breath again, he would start again.
“He tried to find the essence… the essence of our clan inside of me. He carved, he went inside of me with his hands… I can still feel it day and night. I tried to fight and do everything I could… But he never stopped, he would make me mine, he would…” He swallowed thickly as the tears started to form, his breathing shallowed out and under a thick crackling voice he got the next part out…. “Get offspring… with… me as host.” He tried to get it out, yet the throat was feeling like a hand was squeezing it shut. The words that had been spoken got softer at the end till one would barely be able to get a hearing out of it. The bucket that was near… Was now right for Ryota to use, and without really realizing it… His body and mind started to react with the ultimate defense mechanism.
The atmosphere around the place got heavier, not as heavy as with the mission… but any regular person could start to cough to clear their airways before they got a little winded. An aura-like light was coming from the teen, his eyes were shimmering a little. Tiny buds of chakra with small spikes were getting out of the ground. His costum jutsu, beasts fangs.
After the emptying of his stomach, you could easily notice he didn’t eat that much throughout the day and a leaf would be in there. Trying to get it together again, the boy felt like he was only further falling apart. He started to ramble slowly about the past, about what they had done. Till the day he had run away.
The thoughts that he had back then… He had them right now again, and this time… he had to know. His voice shaking, barely there as his throat was burning up. “‘Am I an orphan… With no memories? A lucky adoptee? A son of a foolish woman who ran off with her lover? I received so much hospitality and my cold heart has warmed up to the kindness of the people here. But I still cannot escape the insecure fact, that nothing was ever ‘mine’. The words; you should be more aware of your position just like that Jashin said…”